Monday, November 7, 2016

[Talk]

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 7:23 AM 0 comments
I seriously really want to talk to you
At midnight, on the lonely hour like now
The serious question is...
Do you want to talk to me?

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Thankful

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 7:21 AM 0 comments
God, I'm sorry for I often forget
To be thankful for one irreplaceable talent
It's to fall in love and to love
Not everyone, nowaday, able to feel such feelings

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Love Like You

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 11:56 PM 0 comments
I spelled the mantra
But when I open my eyes
You weren't there
I am strong and this mantra should've worked
But, you're still nowhere I could notice
Must it a good sign
Or was it a misfortune?
A condition where God can only tell
I guess

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

To and Through

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 5:07 AM 0 comments
I raised my eyes
And so do you
We looked at each other
Or so I thought
As I stare to you
But you stare through me

Monday, October 17, 2016

Fall to You Without Thinking

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 5:23 AM 0 comments
If I were to be asked
What was the easiest things ever happened to you?
The answer is obvious
Fall in love to you was the easiest

And somehow, I'd like it to be happen, again and again.

Thursday, September 22, 2016

My Heart Stopped when I Saw You

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 9:19 AM 0 comments
But then I remembered
My heart was already dead
Why would it came back to life?

It didn't
It just... eternally died.

Thursday, September 1, 2016

A First Day Without You

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 7:44 AM 0 comments
Do you remember the last rain that pouring down, marked that spring has come to end? The riots thunder roaring through the dark night and there seems to be nonstopping. But the night goes through and the rain drizzling. And through the dark night, through the tumbling lightning, I know that outside, once the rain slow down, stars sparkling up and moon shines it's way. In that chaos moment, I saw you as the candle that light up my night. As I carefully try to cover the light from the whispering wind.

Do you remember, a year come to end and another drizzling rain start to pour down? That time, I also thought that, "Ahh, that's it. This spring has again come to end". And I remember as i sit down on the long bench with heart full of hopes. Waiting for my summer sun to shine. But then again, through the calming rain of the end of spring, I saw my candle lighting up my dim night. For a moment, I was sure that this will go through.

Do you remember, when the year again come to an end, marking an upcoming hellish summer. Through that night, I remember seeing you standing on the stage. As I hold my tears up, as I put my hearts toward other. As I wish that the candle's fire will burn my memories of you. But you come with another candle, knowing that mine is slowly gone. I thought that you'll give it to someone else, and I never feel so blessed, as you offer it to me.

Another spring now has come, and the summer is yet to begin. The passing years make me realize, how every time different things happened, and I can't predicted of what yet will come. So, this year again, I'm still holding up my candle, slowly blowing off. Whenever I see it, i think, that whenever the time will come of it to die, I'll just buy myself a new one. But, as i can't ever predicted the upcoming summer, a little bit of pieces on my heart, hope that you will again give me yours, once again.

But, I guess this year will be different.

And I don't know how much you can hear my whisper.

But, I missed you. I wish you know, I hope you'll know.

For those who have been my candle for three years, lighting up my dim night, thank you. However the way I will get my new candle, either it's from you, a candle that I bought myself, or if someone offer up a better candle, I hope, I wish, I will be able to receive it full heartedly.

I Miss You

Saturday, August 27, 2016

Closing the Book

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 9:50 AM 0 comments
You know
The thing about closing a good book is
It's really hard no matter how you try
Your mind will still trying to remember
Every pages
Every words
Every mesmerizing moments
And when the time finally come
For you to realize that somethings are meant to left behind
It'll be the hardest thing to do

The thing is, i don't know whether you are a good book or not?
I just love reading books

But it's ok
I'll find another good book
Though i won't completely forget you

Sincerely,

You've made my years full

Monday, August 15, 2016

Who am I?

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 7:27 AM 0 comments
Every now and then
Everytime I thought I see you
I missed smiling
I missed sitting down there and see you staring at me
And then you smile
It remind me of the day where we talked nonstop
Every night and every ticking clock
I missed you my sky
My Icarus
If only you wont burnt when you're close to me

Sunday, July 24, 2016

A Proud Winner of Camp NaNoWriMo

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 9:16 AM 0 comments

And I'm proudly to announce that my Camp NaNoWriMo word count has hit it's WINNER!
YATTAAA!
So happy to know that I finally finish this long project I've already had for years! *sobs*
No, actually, it haven't finished yet X'D but at least, i hit my word goal.

So, please be patient and wait for my work will be posted at Wattpad! Please read my work *bow*

It was such a long hard and rough journey, but finally, i hit finish.
There are still thing to be fixed, and the fact that this work haven't actually quite reach their ending yet. But, I'm sure that it'll slowly reach their goal aaanddd see the light of the day!

I hope that you guys will be able to enjoy my work at my Wattpad.

Thursday, July 14, 2016

NaNoWriMo

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 6:17 AM 0 comments

Hi for everyone who read my blog (which I don't even know if you guys exist or not, anyway, HI!)!
First of all, sorry that lately, i don't really update anymore.
The reason is, as you can see on the banner above, I finally participated on Camp NaNoWriMo!
NaNoWriMo is short from National Novel Writing Month. It's actually, usually happen at November. But, to gear up toward the November Writing Month, NaNoWrimo has Camp NaNoWriMo during April and July.

What's different is, at NaNoWriMo, you must write toward your goal, which is 50k words to be considered as a winner. Of course, either you reached it or not, you'll still be a winner for all the words you've written.

But at camp, you set your own goal! It doesn't have to be 50k word written for you to be considered as winner at camp. But, nevertheless, all that matter is the words that you've already written.

So, if any of you guys, read this and interested with NaNoWriMo's program, just go and check nanowrimo.org. They have answered any question that you probably have right now.

So, while at that, please kindly check my wattpad to read more of my writing! You can read it here.

That's it for now. I hope you guys will interested in writing (and reading) because of this post. Thanks for reading my post~

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Sunyi Senyap

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 6:27 AM 0 comments
Bernafas
Segar dan bersihnya udara musim dingin
Aku bermimpi tentang sebuah dunia dalam tidur lelap
Salju berjatuhan anggunnya
Bahagia dalam pesona musim dingin
Aku tak sabar
Aku tak sabar

Membeku
Orang-orang berkumpul mengelilingi api
Aku bisa merasakan kehangatan dalam dingin
Embun beku  terang menyelimuti pohon-pohon
Memantulkan keperakan malam
Aku tak sabar
Aku tak sabar

Kuharap salju akan turun secepatnya
Di semua tempat
Seluruh dunia ditudungi putih
Mengulang diriku untuk menghadapi musim baru
Sekali lagi

Jatuh dan jatuh salju-salju
Seperti berlian dari langit

Patah hatiku – dilukis putih
Mengarahkan kita ke negeri ajaib
Seputih salju – putih suci
Awal baru

Lalu kuharap salju akan turun secepatnya
Di semua tempat
Seluruh dunia ditudungi putih
Mengulang diriku untuk menghadapi musim baru
Sekali lagi

Originally White Song by Hyde. Lyrics translated by me, so please credit me if you're quoting this. Thank you.

Please be noticed that the translation MIGHT NOT be EXACT. The reason is because i tried to make it sounds more poetic or rhymed in Indonesian. For example, White Song is of course, not "Sunyi Senyap" in Indonesian. I admit the translation of "White Song" to "Sunyi Senyap" was because I'm confused between the term white song and white noise. But since it sounds more poetic than the original translation which is "Lagu Putih", i decided to put it that way. Thank you for your notice.

Monday, May 16, 2016

ICARUS

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 11:16 PM 0 comments
I’m the falling Icarus
Falling through your heart
And I can’t ask you to open it wide
Since I’ll be death and burned

When I first awaken I saw you
Those shining mega creature
I’m blinded, my heart is blinded
I wanted to reach you and only you

But my dad say it’s dangerous
Love will burn you to death
There are no good things come from that
But dear it’s too late for I’ve fallen for you

I’m the burning Icarus
Escaping from the labyrinth to your heart (to where?)
But to where actually I’m escaping? (it’s your heart)
For I’m dying, burned by your love (darling i’m burned)

They said I should reached my dream sky high (what dream?)
So even my dad said you’re unreached, I’ll reach you
My darling help me I’m so blinded by you (do I even have eyes still?)
But all you do is burning me alive

I’m the Icarus
With fake wings I try my hardest to reach you (such an agony)
Even for thousands years Icarus will wait (will you wait?)
Untill the sun cool down so I can reach you (even in afterlife)

Friday, April 22, 2016

Tidur Terlelap

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 6:27 AM 0 comments
Aku baru melihatmu
Melampaui waktu
Ruangan tempat kita berdua
Tapi ingatanku kabur
Lupa bilang apa

Aku mengulurkan tanganku
Dan pada saat yang sempurna itu
Kau menghilang
Aku kehilangan kau lagi

Saat tidur terlelap aku bermimpi melihatmu
Sebagaimana aku mengingatnya, penuh dengan kelembutan
Dan saat yang tenang
Rasanya tidak ada yang akan berganti
Kau berada dekat denganku sampai aku terbangun

Aku melihatmu
Terlalu sebentar
Sebelum cahaya datang
Hatiku berdegup cepat
Mungkin kita akan bertemu lagi

Saat tidur terlelap aku bermimpi melihatmu
Sebagaimana aku mengingatnya, penuh dengan kelembutan
Dan saat yang tenang
Rasanya tidak ada yang akan berganti
Kau berada dekat denganku sampai aku terbangun

Aku melihat kau – sampai aku terbangun dari tidur lelap

Seorang pelukis tanpa kuas
Tak bisa mewarnai kanvas
Tanpa kau di sini – tak ada warna
Pemandangan tanpa warna

Saat tidur terlelap aku bermimpi melihatmu
Sebagaimana aku mengingatnya, dipenuhi kelembutan
Lalu saat tenang
Aku merasa takkan ada yang berganti
Kau berada dekat denganku sampai ku terbangun

Aku melihatmu – tidur terlelap


Originally Shallow Sleep by hyde. Lyrics translated by me so please credit me if you're quoting this thank you.

ALSO. Some translation MIGHT NOT BE EXACT. The reason is because i tried to make it sound more poetic or rhyme in Indonesian. I indeed try to get the closest translation. For example, shallow means dangkal in Indonesia. But it's really weird to translate it to Tidur Dangkal... right? I'm guessing that Shallow Sleep refer to that condition when you sleep, like taking a nap actually not really sleep, but you still aware of the condition around. It happens several times with me and i could kinda get what the song mean from that. So, please understood that this isn't the exact translation.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

[MESSAGE]

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 6:26 AM 0 comments
And here come another night
When I missed hugging you so much
Smelling your perfume
Seeing your warm smile
As if I've ever saw them before
But, if only you know
How much I really missed you
If only this drizzling rain can tell you

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Tanjung Badai

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 6:17 AM 0 comments
Jadi kemana harus berlayar?
Sang kapal kehilangan arah
Tangisan pun ku telan
Hilang di laut yang mengganas

Jadi kemana cinta hilang?
Akankah ada pernah ku gapai?
Tanjung badai
Menggemakan kesakitanku

Kau tak pernah tahu
Warna dari dosa
Lalu awan menutup
Dan gelap

Dalam bayangan
Dikejar-ditangkap
Sampai ujung dunia
Dipeluk

Sang kapal hantu berkeliaran, jauh
Tak ada bintang mengarahkan
Sementara harta ini
Tak ada gunanya lagi

Jadi kemana harus berlayar?
Sang kapal kehilangan arah
Tangisan pun ku telan
Hilang di laut yang mengganas

Jadi kemana cinta hilang?
Akankah ada pernah ku gapai?
Tanjung badai
Menggemakan kesakitanku

Kau sangat mengerti
Rasa dosa
Manis meleleh di mulut
Layaknya coklat

Kenikmatan itu
Kau penuhi
Namun ada waktunya mimpi
Harus mati

Sang kapal hantu berkeliaran, jauh
Tak ada bintang mengarahkan
Sementara harta ini
Tak ada gunanya lagi

Akankah ini menjadi nasibku?

Lalu kemana kapal berlayar?
Ia kehilangan arah
Tangisan ku telan
Hilang di laut mengganas

Kemana cinta hilang?
Akankah ada pernah ku gapai?
Tanjung badai
Menggemakan kesakitanku

(Originally The Cape of Storms, lyric by hyde. Translation is by me so please credit if you are using it or quoting it thankyou.)

Saturday, March 5, 2016

Short Talk

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 2:43 AM 0 comments
Let's talk for a moment.
I'm so sorry.
For I never know,
When should I stop loving you.
Whenever I thought this is it
I should stop
And then i say goodbye
And in just a few seconds
I'll run back after you.
So sorry,
For I don't know,
How to stop loving you.

Yours truly

Hopefully

Sunday, February 28, 2016

Forever Sometimes

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 3:26 AM 0 comments
Nowadays when i stay low
And listen as the ground shout
I can hear those reaching to the sky and scream
Those who begs for love
Desperately under the miserable clouds
But why sometimes, I wonder
No matter how loud they scream
No answer can be heard
So i stay low and wonder
Can ever the most admirable love be achieved?

Friday, February 26, 2016

Don't Get Too Close, It's Dark Inside

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 7:46 AM 0 comments
It's where my demon hide.
- Demons, Imagine Dragons

Definition (and lack of) Happiness

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 7:44 AM 0 comments
Hello,

I just want to say that I'm sorry. For all the trouble and misery I've put you into. Never in my mind that I meant it at all. You know, sometimes a mother need to scold her child so they know what they did is wrong. Life is hard, but we'll go through this.

We'll reach heaven (hopefully) eventually.

Sincerely,



Yours Pathetic.

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

TEARS

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 6:43 AM 0 comments
I couldn't stop crying. No matter how hard I try. This is just too painful. Life is too painful. I have to make decision but there are no decision to be made. I have to stand up but there are nothing to stand up for. I have to fall in love, but no one seems to worth my love, yet. Anyway, if I do fall in love, it still means nothing if no one fall in love to me too. Even though someone did fall in love with me, still suck if he doesn't deserve it. It's too tiring. And I can't stop crying.

Apa yang Ku Rindukan?

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 6:20 AM 0 comments
Aku rindu tersenyum
Seperti sudah seabad tidak
Rindu sekali menjadi hangat
Tertawa pada candaan sekecil apapun

Sekarang aku hanya bisa menangis
Berteriak dalam diam
Lalu tidur sambil berharap sakitnya kan hilang
Apa gunanya jika aku bangun hanya merasakan lebih sakit

Aku ingin pulang
Tapi aku sudah di rumah
Aku masih mau hidup sungguh
Walau hati ini sangat lelah

Aku ingin dipeluk tapi kau jauh
Ingin mendekat tapi aku tak mampu
Hanya bisa berdoa, tapi hati ini tetap sakit
Jadi, aku menangis lagi dalam diam

Apakah aku sendiri? Tidak
Tapi begitulah rasanya
Ingin sekali berteriak
"Kau tidak pernah tahu seperti apa rasanya menjadi diriku"

Lelah
Mau tidur
Tapi aku takut mimpi buruk
Lalu sakit yang datang setelahnya

Ingin tetap terbangun
Tapi sakit
Ingin kabur dalam tidur
Tapi takut

Entah harus apa
Mungkin aku kurang shalat malam

Aku rindu
Tanpa tahu harus bagaimana


Saturday, February 13, 2016

Under the Star Capacity

Posted by Wahyuni Ajeng Gumandar at 6:53 AM 0 comments
I remember once when I told you
"I'll do anything for you"
"Cross the sea, through the storms, over the dessert"
But really, who am I to say that?
For when it's raining now and I'm here
Standing under the umbrella to keep me dry
I missed you so much that I'll do everything to meet you
I'll walk thousands miles
Through time and spaces
Over the infinite possibility
But really, I'm just sitting here
Watching to your window
Wishing you'll peek through with your sweet smiles
And moreover
Under the umbrella
It's only a rain darling
And...
I missed you
 

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