Tanjung Badai

Jadi kemana harus berlayar?
Sang kapal kehilangan arah
Tangisan pun ku telan
Hilang di laut yang mengganas

Jadi kemana cinta hilang?
Akankah ada pernah ku gapai?
Tanjung badai
Menggemakan kesakitanku

Kau tak pernah tahu
Warna dari dosa
Lalu awan menutup
Dan gelap

Dalam bayangan
Dikejar-ditangkap
Sampai ujung dunia
Dipeluk

Sang kapal hantu berkeliaran, jauh
Tak ada bintang mengarahkan
Sementara harta ini
Tak ada gunanya lagi

Jadi kemana harus berlayar?
Sang kapal kehilangan arah
Tangisan pun ku telan
Hilang di laut yang mengganas

Jadi kemana cinta hilang?
Akankah ada pernah ku gapai?
Tanjung badai
Menggemakan kesakitanku

Kau sangat mengerti
Rasa dosa
Manis meleleh di mulut
Layaknya coklat

Kenikmatan itu
Kau penuhi
Namun ada waktunya mimpi
Harus mati

Sang kapal hantu berkeliaran, jauh
Tak ada bintang mengarahkan
Sementara harta ini
Tak ada gunanya lagi

Akankah ini menjadi nasibku?

Lalu kemana kapal berlayar?
Ia kehilangan arah
Tangisan ku telan
Hilang di laut mengganas

Kemana cinta hilang?
Akankah ada pernah ku gapai?
Tanjung badai
Menggemakan kesakitanku

(Originally The Cape of Storms, lyric by hyde. Translation is by me so please credit if you are using it or quoting it thankyou.)

Short Talk

Let's talk for a moment.
I'm so sorry.
For I never know,
When should I stop loving you.
Whenever I thought this is it
I should stop
And then i say goodbye
And in just a few seconds
I'll run back after you.
So sorry,
For I don't know,
How to stop loving you.

Yours truly

Hopefully

Forever Sometimes

Nowadays when i stay low
And listen as the ground shout
I can hear those reaching to the sky and scream
Those who begs for love
Desperately under the miserable clouds
But why sometimes, I wonder
No matter how loud they scream
No answer can be heard
So i stay low and wonder
Can ever the most admirable love be achieved?

Don't Get Too Close, It's Dark Inside

It's where my demon hide.
- Demons, Imagine Dragons

Definition (and lack of) Happiness

Hello,

I just want to say that I'm sorry. For all the trouble and misery I've put you into. Never in my mind that I meant it at all. You know, sometimes a mother need to scold her child so they know what they did is wrong. Life is hard, but we'll go through this.

We'll reach heaven (hopefully) eventually.

Sincerely,

Yours Pathetic.

TEARS

I couldn't stop crying. No matter how hard I try. This is just too painful. Life is too painful. I have to make decision but there are no decision to be made. I have to stand up but there are nothing to stand up for. I have to fall in love, but no one seems to worth my love, yet. Anyway, if I do fall in love, it still means nothing if no one fall in love to me too. Even though someone did fall in love with me, still suck if he doesn't deserve it. It's too tiring. And I can't stop crying.

Apa yang Ku Rindukan?

Aku rindu tersenyum
Seperti sudah seabad tidak
Rindu sekali menjadi hangat
Tertawa pada candaan sekecil apapun

Sekarang aku hanya bisa menangis
Berteriak dalam diam
Lalu tidur sambil berharap sakitnya kan hilang
Apa gunanya jika aku bangun hanya merasakan lebih sakit

Aku ingin pulang
Tapi aku sudah di rumah
Aku masih mau hidup sungguh
Walau hati ini sangat lelah

Aku ingin dipeluk tapi kau jauh
Ingin mendekat tapi aku tak mampu
Hanya bisa berdoa, tapi hati ini tetap sakit
Jadi, aku menangis lagi dalam diam

Apakah aku sendiri? Tidak
Tapi begitulah rasanya
Ingin sekali berteriak
"Kau tidak pernah tahu seperti apa rasanya menjadi diriku"

Lelah
Mau tidur
Tapi aku takut mimpi buruk
Lalu sakit yang datang setelahnya

Ingin tetap terbangun
Tapi sakit
Ingin kabur dalam tidur
Tapi takut

Entah harus apa
Mungkin aku kurang shalat malam

Aku rindu
Tanpa tahu harus bagaimana