Having you

I'm so sorry
I know you won't be there for me when I need you
Because i wasn't there when you need me the most
I'm preparing to lose you on whatever way the God fated us to be
Even if I'll have you one day, I'll somehow lose you one day, right?
On whatever God planned our way to be
Whether we will be together one day or we only gonna be together for right now, like this
I hope it's the best way for both of us
And I will probably regret it one day for never told you my real feelings
But I really hope I'll get the chance, eventually
For I'm preparing to lose you, one day
Or so I wish